Birthday
Anyone who knows me well knows that I think that birthdays are EXTREMELY important. I tell everyone that my birthday is a national holiday and they should feel the same about theirs. Well today was definately a very special day for very special girl, my sweet angel Ashlyn. I bet she had a blow out party in heaven with all her friends (Brock, Brody, and Josiah) and family. Needless to say today was very hard and emotional for me. There is no pain in the world like losing a child. As time goes by it does get easier but today was like ripping a bandaid off. All the vivid memories and recollection of the events that took place. Everything from feeling intense pain in my side, learning my child was gone, delivery, and all the pain there after. I went through my memory box and it felt as if someone was holding a pillow over my face, I could not breathe. I miss her some much and I know I always will. One thing I can say for certain is if we had not lost Ashlyn, we wouldn't have Jordan and Jaxon right now. I know she is watching over her little brothers each and every day. I can only hope that this day will get easier to get through as the years go on.
Quick update on the boys:
* Jordan is 2 lbs 14 oz
*Jaxon is 3 lbs 8.5 oz
Both are still doing well and we are hoping that they will soon be able to wear clothes! Normally they want them to be at a certain weight (2000 grams) but the nurse tonight said she would talk to the doctors about it since they do so well being contained. That's pretty much all the has changed, please continue to pray for our boys.
Quick update on the boys:
* Jordan is 2 lbs 14 oz
*Jaxon is 3 lbs 8.5 oz
Both are still doing well and we are hoping that they will soon be able to wear clothes! Normally they want them to be at a certain weight (2000 grams) but the nurse tonight said she would talk to the doctors about it since they do so well being contained. That's pretty much all the has changed, please continue to pray for our boys.
posted by Crichelle | 12:05 AM
3 Comments:
We're praying for you on this day. I know it's a bittersweet time, missing your daughter but rejoicing in the continued progress of the boys. Isn't it humbling to know that there is no one on Earth that loves your kids as much as you and that is not even a drop in the bucket compared to God's love for them. We continue to lift the boys up, specifically by name, to their Heavenly Father.
It does get easier. Our Ben would have been 25 on his last b'day. Each birthday becomes a little less "why me" and more of a "I wonder what they would have been like if..." which to me was much easier to cope with.
Hey girl - I've been traveling so am just now catching up on your blog and facebook. I knew it was this time of year as once again we are in Kansas...and that is the very reason I was not at the memorial service because we were in KS this time last year too. I've been thinking of you and can only imagine what you are going through. I'm so glad you have the boys to help you through this time. I was amazed to see that Jordan is almost 3 lbs and Jaxon is already over 3 1/2 lbs. That is awesome! They are troopers!!!
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